2005-01-23 - 12:29 a.m.
but i'm still totally down for the whole strap-on deal

i don’t know what’s happening to me. every time i see you i come away feeling empty and totally insecure. often i cry driving home. i can’t help it.

all this... it’s destroying me from the inside.

i’ve been suicidal for weeks. it’s like i’m standing in the middle of a crowded room screaming my fucking head off and nobody even bats an eyelash. what do i need to do to get someone to notice? to get my best fucking friend to notice? to get any-fucking-one at all to notice? what the fuck do i need to do?

i’m drowning, dammit. somebody throw me a fucking lifejacket before i go under again.

- rachel

ooh, you touch my tra-la-la... mmm, my ding-ding-dong